I know I wasn't like this before. But I don't hang out with them as usual anymore, I actually THINK twice before doing something. I've stopped swearing that much unlike before. There was always at least one swear word in every sentence. That's an improvement isn't it? Or is it not enough to be considered as an improvement?
Cause for now, I know what I want to do because being called arrogant, selfish, tyrannical and inconsiderate woke me up. I've let down so many people, lost a couple of friends and a sibling's trust. Why? ME. How selfish can I get? "What Jamie wants, Jamie will get it." is true. It hurts when I had to hear it but it's for the better isn't it? For my own good?
Most of the questions that I've been asked was about me being here in Australia, how I've changed so much just to fit in with my friends, or that me being Aussie-fied in just 10 months or so. Stop asking me that please. How would I know when I'm trying to convert back to my old self? How am I going to know if all I get is little pieces of information about myself?
I'm not seeking for attention by typing all those up there. I'm not craving for attention. It's my blog for God's sake. What am I going to write if I'm not supposed to write about how I feel? I'm not going to start writing a diary or journal because I know I won't continue writing for long.
.... I'm going for a jog to think.